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today is 11/5, I am having my day off, but i can't feel any happiness for that...wt i think now is only " tomorrow is time to work again.." 
many peoplw said , you can't blame anyone because that's what you choose ...I know about that...but i really not happy right now. Till now...2 months have already past....the happy moment that i had, i would say , not more than 10 ...I won't say i regret in making this decision, but it's totally out of my prediction ....now everyday, i just work and sleep, i really hate this kind of life, but even though  I got off, i still   alone and do nothing.I can't find anyone to go out with me, whereever i go , i just go alone, is that whatt I really want, is that whatt i should got after I pay such a lot of effort to come here to have my internship, Idon't know, who can tell?but i really feel frustrated for that, friends, i got here, but i can find no one whenever i was sad.sometimes i just want to  talk to someone or do some shopping with someone,all of them are busy.
I know that's not other's fault ,but that's totally not a  good feeling.........and "it" come tooo often....when i can get rid of that? i really miss my life in Hong Kong,  whenever I feel bored , i can find my friend to go KTV with me, hang out with me or do shopping with me...

here come to the 3rd week of my internship.....


as I need to travel MTR back home, I have changed to morning shift instead of afternoon shift .actualyl after change to this shift , i learned a lot!now i realised, the importance of doing preparational work! and leared how important of time management^^ cos "time is the only thing that will never wait for you , when you diong the perparation work in morning shift, if you can't finish your work before the opening time of the restaurant....i will cause a big problem, and no one will care about y ou can't finish in time....people in the real world will only care about the results, so now I have learned that if I know it's impossible to finish in such a short period of time, then wt I can do is use my own time to finish that, try to come to the restaurant 30 mins before my working time...or do FASTER! but I can say when people work under stress...they will learn how to work faster..haha! that's wt i am doing now, now i just in a "hurry " mode wtever i do, even walk! I think that's also a benefit that i gain from th is job ne^^

hey..here is my 2nd week report..actually , i can use two words to express my feeling in this past week....TIRED & EXHAUSTED...
this week, i have change to morning shift instead of O shift(overtime shift..) i am gald that I need not to take taxi everynight i finished my work...i would say, it help me to save a lot...but on the other hand , i need to weak up 2 hours ealier and after my work, i have to rush back home and go to bad as soon as I can...everyday is the same, work and sleep, no more free time and no more rest time>
but i really learn a lot is past 2 weeks, first of all, i have learn the importance of TIME mangement! cos now I am no longer stay in IHTTI and being a student, no one with care about you, in this REAl world, time TIME is the ost important thing, if you can't  finish a task within the time your boss has given, you can only giveup your rest time or lunch time to finish that, there is no more "grey area" that you can think of in order to gain more time in finishing that task. so for me, now i try to back to the restaurants earlier , thus i can have more time to finish the preperation work, although, that's not the best way, but i hope that by reducing my rest time, i can erge myself to ijmprove my effectiveness!haha~

ok the second thing is, I am happy that  the relationship between me and my colleguages became better. now i would say, the better communication skills you had, the easiler  you can work with others and make friends with others, now i know why people who got a great communication skills can become a successful leader. 

anyway, I would say, now here is already become my work station in preparing for my internship report.As i need to write a blog here evey week to record what was happened during my internhip..so you guys cann see me here everyweek..hahah!

ok, let's start.

maybe some ppl will know that i had put a lot of effort in order to get this job, i really cherish this chance, so sure i did work hard lor.But last week was really my hard time......since i haven't work in F&B or doing anything related to service for more than 2 months....when i start to work, i suddenly being ask to do this and do that and serve the guest...and work from 12:00-12:00a.m.!!omg.....i was extrememly tired...when i polishing a thousand of cuterlies...i have a thought that later whenever i saw anyone having western cuisine...i will kill them...!

but on the order hand, i realised that , before when i was having dinner and talked happily with my friends or family...actually that is the result of many people behind and paying a lot of effort in order to make the whole dinning goes smoothly...some may working in the kitchen and see when should they get the food out...ssome may polishing a thousand of galsses and cuterlies...some may thing how to settle the complaint from the guests....etc,etc...So I think being a waiter is really a hard job but it's worth learning! I really learn a lot this week!

so , finally ,i would say we should respect all the people who serves us in the world, waiter is totally not a " low level job, don't even think that you pay money to have a meal in a restaurant so you have right to blam the waiters with no reasons and look down on them...since without their service...no one can have a happy meal time~

hey guys, come her and write something again!

first of all , i need ot say thank you to god, since now everything is settle....finally need not to back to hk^^">

however, i still have to wait fro one more week in order to start me work ohh....actually,it can say that's my last holiday before I back to swiss....but I don't know why, sometimes, I just in bad mood and don't know where i can go and wt i can do....the felling really terrible when you wake up every morning without an "aim"...that's Y i just sleep till 12:00p.m. everyday^^" actualy that's gd la, at least i can keep fit, as I always ahve my first meal at around 3-4....it can help me to save money, haha!

in pass  few days , when I watched a tv adv. the nike one, all the ppl in that adv said" impossible is nothing" , for me, the first thing that come to my head is " is that true??so is it mean that now the thing i am doing will not be impossible?since impossible is notinng......

before I also support this thought, but it make me feel doubt in pass few weeks.......but I think I will try my best to believe that, since the one who are doing the "impossible " thing don't believe that, how can it be done???

and few hours before i just prove the thought my other blog......garyhkkfc.....that message give me a great support on showing that" impossible is noting"!

Even though I try , even though I cry.....the world still left me behind.....
who I can pray for? who i can talk to? I don't know.....

what i hope know is ......god will bless me tomorrow , and i can get wt i want........
cos i didn't do anything wrong.......I don't know y the world need to treat me like this.............

難道不想向現實低頭的人就要受到ｐｕｌｉｓｈｍｅｎｔ　？？
難道這個就是我在過去幾個月不停努力，　不肯放棄的結果ｍａ？？
難道這就是上天ｐｕｌｉｓｈ　我做太多了嗎?
我有做錯嗎？如果有，我到底做錯甚麼？
ｗｈｙ　ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｔｈｅ　受害者？？？

hey guys..come here to write something again...
now is 2:45a.m. ne..nearly come to an end of gary's hk promoto tour.......in the pass 4 days....I can tell you i was extremely tired...although i am quite happy on monday..but now whenever I was alone ...i will then think actually y i need to do all like that???for wt??gary??but i think he even can't think of my name if i didn't give him some tips?!actually, i keep on doing this "job" already for more than one year..but wt i can get actually? few autographed photo??cd??

actually, those i mentioned are not the thing that I really wanted...i just want to be friend with gary andn enjoy his music only.....It 's really difficult for me to find the happy feeling that i can get for his musix at the biggning....since now whenever i htink of him, i will then think ...oh , how can we organise all the ppl in the airport?how many JSG ticket we can get?how many ppl will join the recording................although me and crystal everyday just work till 3:00 at keast...but will he know that actually?? NEVER ba......I didn't blame anyone i just think Y our club can't be successful sometimes......when i went to singapore last week, when i joined their funciton, i really think that's a Official club,but how about us? I don't think we are not workhard enough...but y we jsut can't getting interested from others???y many ppl still think that we hide something and didn't tell them??we already try our best....we let you guys tkae photo first and now we even don't have more than 5 photos in our camera...we let you guys talk to him first...evern hough we already wait for him outside the station for more than 30 mins....wt you want  us to do???? I just want ot gather allt he ppl an dsupport gary happily...

Here is the lyric that I rewrited from gary's song " 你是我的寶貝”, haha!welcome for your comment..haha, I think everyone just hope that's wt gary want to tell us ba, haha!

你是我的寶貝
曲：ｇａｒｙ　詞：ａｍｙ(rewrite version)

hihi, My HO finally coem to an end lor.........I can say this month is my dark age...every day on ly sleep for 3-4 hours........studying , dealing nwith my permit......report.....really exhausted life....But i really happy that I can finish all these thing before my 20th birthday la

anyway, today i finally get the letter that I want, i think that's is the best birthday present for me ne..hehe....i really put a lot of effort in order to get that letter oh!!!really sooo tired  for that..>
now , still got 20 mins, then my 19 years old life will come to an end lor....ai....20 ne....suddenly feel I am quite old already..haha! I really hope that I can back to last year birthday ne, as last year's birthday most happy birthday that I ever had.....many friend celebrating with me, also is my school last day...we all pbut Thia year, I think lay around!!soo happy oh!!everyone just treat me as a best friend, everyone just showing respect to me ar, buy cake for me...I really soo happy ne..take lot of photos!!^^

none i finally come to the last 2 weeks of my HO programme...It really busy ne......extrememly tired, many exam , practical exam, test, report presentation.......I also need to deal with my permit thing, have phone interview with Hk hotel........I really do'nt know wt i m doing now already.....
last weeks I even didn't sleep for whole night and study for test........they made me want to die...but when ii come to this week , i found that the situation is even worser.........3 practical exam and 1 exam and 2 repot and 11 presetntaiton, having phone interview...............within this week, I really find that 24 hours is totally not enough for me, god ,y you need to treat me like that....everyday i need to use all the time to work, but I really don't know wt i am doing already, i really don't wan tot write those report and doing the presentation, i have no engery to do that already....my eyes already can't keep open, and I still haev to attend the lessons..........i htnk it worser than darkage....

and I also need to think of my house in taiwna, i need to fidn the information of my house, and i need to worry about of my permit, and I need to go there and there to find a signature from some people inorder to apply to permit.........i really exhausted....but there are still 2 weeks to go ..... Can I stay alive after this 2 weeks ????i doubt....but after 2 weeks is my birthday ne.....can I still celebrate my 20 birthday happily??or just sleepp on the plane for whole day???????no one knows ......

yesterday, all the chineses in IHTTI had organised a great event in the school, we need ot organise a theme dinner for whole school ohh!!!really happy ne!!but extremely tired....>
but I was soo happy ohh, cos i did try a lot of things, eg.) make dumpling, make sweet and sour pork, fired fish with corn sauce, fired chichen......etc....i cut a lot of hting, i remember the day after i made the dumpling, i seems lost my both arm ne!!!sooooooo painful and tired, aha!but anyway, i really happy to be involved in such a great events!although it tired, but when we finish the dinner and go out to say thank you to all the guest(our schoolmate and teachers) , when we walk through , evveryone just say thank you and welldone to us, I was sooooo happy and glad that i did join the kitchen group!!haha!cos i really like cooking ma, ahah!

if i got photo later, i will post some here, haha!realyl funny ohh, haha!

today, I just let myself to have a rest ! and I went out for a walk with my friend here after i finish my brunch!
today weather was really gd ohh! I really love that!although there is a little bit cold here^^">

next week onward i will bee very very very busy lor, i don't think i will have time to have a walk like today again....so maybe that's the last chance for me to do such relax thing.Anyway, I enjoy that!so now i want to share some photo with you guys!I hope you will know my feelinng at that time after seeing those photo! tryt o guess wt's my feeling at that time as reply ba, haha!

hehe, try to write somehting here again.
actualyl now i am just watching gary new mv " two lovers " and waitng for the buffering now,hahah!

anyway, just tellyou guys wt happen in my first weeks of school life after the christmas break~one word.......BUSY!
everyday I just having lesson from 8-6p.m.....sooooo tired,and the most sad thing was, it also my practical week!!!!!kitchen, les ami, chatter box.....OMGm, ,really really tired, and i still got a housekeeping exam on thurday! I just have no mood to study, so i just use not more then 4 hours to study the whole thing...hahaha, I woke up at 4:30a.m. today and study in the toilet ne......ai........really sad, but it's ok la, cos i think i can get at least a pass in this test, i have already achieved my goal anyway, hahah!

“放棄”　～　改自“背叛”~gary new song

From : Amy

To: Anyone who are interested

hey guys!i think most of you know that I have already backed to hk for holiday lor!3 weeks ne, qutie a long holiday!although ther will be a final exam waiting for me in IHTTI,I won't think of that within this 2 weeks first, just enjoy my holiday!!!haha!!!!

I think i am a quite lucky people, when I just back to hk i can meet the one that i really miss him soo much!!GARY!!! how lucky I am, i really happy on 17/12! go to the airport  n bought breakfast for him,bought a cap for him,  went to tvb, took  photo with him , talked to him ....etc!that's really an unforgattable day^^(for me) 
Although many people may think that those thing that I did is soooooo stupid, meaningless, foolish, crazy,etc. but for me , at least , doing those thing with my friend,communicate with the company, talked with my friend  make me feel that I am being needed but not I can here or diappear! 

hey guys, i come here lor...
actually i just finish "half" of the last practical in 2006,haha!actually i still need to do it in the evening, btu anyways, I am already so happy about that!^^

ohh , yes , next week at this time, i am already in hk having dinner with my family lor, really looking forward about that!!haha~ finally , i can have a break lor, haha~
although my mood is not really good in here( now already have improvement, since i have tried to ignore something that make me unhappy, haha^^/), but i promise you guys, no one will see my unhappy face in HK, you guys must see amy with a big smile all the time, haha!

hey guys,now i come her to write somehting sad again, sorry ne..

before i said i will tryt o live alone and don't care about those stupid thing anymore, but now i find that it really difficult to do that ne........
now i just really alone all the time, you know????

hihi, everyone,tis time i will write something happy here, hehe!

yesterday was my hot pot night ohhhh!haha, soo happy ne , i ate a lot oh, we have beef, chicken, mushroom, sausages, fish ball.........etc, and i cook SWEET SOUP OHHH, hahatha't smy first time to cook, 西米露 and the feedback is quite gd ne, haha, i think i have potential to become a chef, haha!

besides, today morning, i let myself to have a little holday,since i was soooo tried lasast week, my horible practical week>