nazuki210

today is 11/5, I am having my day off, but i can't feel any happiness for that...wt i think now is only " tomorrow is time to work again.." 
many peoplw said , you can't blame anyone because that's what you choose ...I know about that...but i really not happy right now. Till now...2 months have already past....the happy moment that i had, i would say , not more than 10 ...I won't say i regret in making this decision, but it's totally out of my prediction ....now everyday, i just work and sleep, i really hate this kind of life, but even though  I got off, i still   alone and do nothing.I can't find anyone to go out with me, whereever i go , i just go alone, is that whatt I really want, is that whatt i should got after I pay such a lot of effort to come here to have my internship, Idon't know, who can tell?but i really feel frustrated for that, friends, i got here, but i can find no one whenever i was sad.sometimes i just want to  talk to someone or do some shopping with someone,all of them are busy.
I know that's not other's fault ,but that's totally not a  good feeling.........and "it" come tooo often....when i can get rid of that? i really miss my life in Hong Kong,  whenever I feel bored , i can find my friend to go KTV with me, hang out with me or do shopping with me...


I think i better sleep earlier tonight...i don't want to think of that anymore.....i don't want to feel sad when i made mistake during my work, i don't want to think about wt i can do alone when i got day off,i don't want to think tomorrow is the time to work again...............................................................