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really haven't been here for long long time...i think no more ppl will come here to read my blog la ba, haha~!sorry to those who came before...as I really silly to update the blog, actually, I got many thing that I want to share here, but I just too lazy to do the typing..haha
but this time, i really want to keep some of my feeling and thought here so that I need not to think about them all the time..it makes me feel tired...really..
i think everyone who knows me should know about gary,this guy, I would say he gave me a lot ,but also cost me a lot, he gave me friends from all arounf the world and power from his music so that I can keep on going to face the problems when I was in Swiss...those I really appriciate...however, he also cost me a lot, I lost a lot of time and $ and I even change my personaility(too serious? but that's true)...I don't know how to say, i think start from last year...whenever finish joining his funciton ...the only feeling i got from him is sadness......the more popular he is, the more sadness i got, since it just like I become useless....now he already got more and more fans supporting him, I even don't know wether he still rememebr who amy is...whenever I saw him, there's always a bunch of ppl around him, no more talking between us, less and less solo photo I got.......I keep asking myself y I still continue to support him throught these years? Y I don't give up after I go to swiss? Y I still hope that I can meet him again even though I feel sad after every function? Y I still love to buy his cd and support his music although I already know those songs are no longer the one I listened in 2006 which can make me feel touching from teh bottom of my heart? Y I still joining his funcitons after I know that's onyl because I am responsible for that?
真的只剩下責任了嗎???I keep asking myself about that throught this year, but the answer is..I don't know, cos I really捨不得,也放不下.....我放不下所有因為他而認識的姐妹朋友,我放不下所有我們之間的回憶(no matter with gary or with crystal, anny, yoyo, regina, wansia...everyone I met because of him..),我真的想要珍惜而不是放棄,但有時候真的是很累...但這些,他會知道嗎?我們的無奈,他會感覺到嗎?.............................
my heart is full of sadness right now.......
but this time, i really want to keep some of my feeling and thought here so that I need not to think about them all the time..it makes me feel tired...really..
i think everyone who knows me should know about gary,this guy, I would say he gave me a lot ,but also cost me a lot, he gave me friends from all arounf the world and power from his music so that I can keep on going to face the problems when I was in Swiss...those I really appriciate...however, he also cost me a lot, I lost a lot of time and $ and I even change my personaility(too serious? but that's true)...I don't know how to say, i think start from last year...whenever finish joining his funciton ...the only feeling i got from him is sadness......the more popular he is, the more sadness i got, since it just like I become useless....now he already got more and more fans supporting him, I even don't know wether he still rememebr who amy is...whenever I saw him, there's always a bunch of ppl around him, no more talking between us, less and less solo photo I got.......I keep asking myself y I still continue to support him throught these years? Y I don't give up after I go to swiss? Y I still hope that I can meet him again even though I feel sad after every function? Y I still love to buy his cd and support his music although I already know those songs are no longer the one I listened in 2006 which can make me feel touching from teh bottom of my heart? Y I still joining his funcitons after I know that's onyl because I am responsible for that?
真的只剩下責任了嗎???I keep asking myself about that throught this year, but the answer is..I don't know, cos I really捨不得,也放不下.....我放不下所有因為他而認識的姐妹朋友,我放不下所有我們之間的回憶(no matter with gary or with crystal, anny, yoyo, regina, wansia...everyone I met because of him..),我真的想要珍惜而不是放棄,但有時候真的是很累...但這些,他會知道嗎?我們的無奈,他會感覺到嗎?.............................
my heart is full of sadness right now.......
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