nazuki210

Finally come to the end of this semester, actually, I would say this semester really gone soo fast, it just like i was back to IHTTI yesterday~!
This semester is really a diseaster for me...non stop working , planning, writting, exams..........never end....frustrated is the only feeling that i had now....sometime i even asked myself y I need to pay such a lot to put myself into hell, sometimes just want to cry hard, but even though i cried like lossing my mind, things and exams still comming , whenever i woke up iwt i need to do is to finish plenty of reports and group before the due date...I really want to get used to it, but it's hard, really hard......

alhtough it's hard, but finally it's over, i don't know how i stay alive, is it a miracle?who knows? after this semes, next task will be internship, i don't know if i make  a right choices, but it's no doubt that singapore is my favourite place which i would like to carry on my live there in the future, but I have no confidence to say that I must learn something from the internship right now as I don't know if I can satnd with those responsibility of providing high standard of performance, I go a little bit scare, cos ogf my terrible experience in singapore before.......i don't know...It seems that there are full of question mark in my life right now, i don't know wt is really the correct way for me to carry on my life, i don't know wt goanna be happened next year (or in BA) i don't know i don't know , i am totally lost actually...but I realized that no matter how hard life is, you still haev to over come that, "time" is really fair, it will never wait for you , but it must keep going, so hard time must  gone someday, this already become a motivation which supporting me ......i really hope that someday , i can find a motivation which can really " motivate " me but not telling me how the realistic is and forcing me to motivate myself...pls no more.....