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wow how long havn't I been here? honestly, I almost forgot i did have a habit of writing blog, when I gone through that tonight, I realized, almost everytime I come here to wrote something, it's all about my bad mood or sad things that I gone through.......it's sounds horrible, but at least here is a place to I get let myself free, don't need to care about anyone but myself ....to really say wt I want to say , to express wt I really feel at this moment....

so....since I have already pause for like 3 years....lets get a lite briefing so i can help myself remember wt i did in the past 3 years....like I wrote in my  last blog, I doubt about wether i did a right choice of going to the US for internship....now i wanna tell the one who said so in 3 years ago that I had made a ight choice, although it's hard....but i do made some gd friends , visit places that I might have no other chance to visit again in my life...till now, i still missing the time that I spent with JP, Wang Xi , peter, flavia and....in miami, and orlando n vagas ....I never regret of working like shit in the club, cos i know that is a kind of experience...the one others can never had, i do believe  I am blessed....

Although I haev step in to coffee business sicne i back to hong kong in 2010...it was a hard time cos many ppl feel disappointed about my decision.....for not working in a 5 stars hotel but a tiny cafe, working like hell  everyday..selling 700 cups a day by paying for only like 9 k per month....but for me, I feel grateful to myself for making this coice, seriously, being a barista n working with coffee everyday , it is the first time that I really find out something that I love to work with it n i want it to be my life-time career.....if i am not a barista, i won't be able to visit different nice cafes in different country, exchanging ideas and sharing knowledge with other great barista in the workld, meeting the WBC champ in an exhibition..bringon stage in singapore FHA ..etc.etc...although someitme , i also doubt about my decision n honestly, i don't even know wether i want ot stay in hongkong ro to move to other places...but wt i know is, i wanna be a barista and perhaps a pro one in my lifetime! I am a barista, and no one could be doubt about that, not even my parents, i will show you i did a right choice n i am no longer the one who only care abouthow others think about me but not wt I really want in my life!  I am planning for my next move in sg n i hope it can come true....

I wish next time when i came here...i could tell everybody how great my barista's life is...add oil barista Amy

I am glad that I did write my blog , although it's not that frquently, at elast it could remind me some of the special memories that I should remember~ When I read through my blog today.....I just realize a year is gone already......it's come to the other boxing day....ha...

Las year , I was spending my christamas break in germany with twins and enjoying my lovely pork knucle k buying my christmas present, chocolates....but this year, I was busy working in the US....no day off, no great present, not even a time to go out to look for that...sometimes i just want to ask myself wether it's a right decision to come to the US...did I learn anything here? am I really enjoy that time that I spent here??did I met some great friends like wt I did in taiwan ? I really doubt that....

In this few weeks , I keep thinking of my like in taiwan...although it's hard and many things happened at that time, but at least I was happy , really happy when I thinking about that now...but wt happen in the US now? a dozen of bitches around , no ppl wanna respect you, working like nothing but a slave.....you can't go anywhere without a car here.....the only thing you could do is watching movie....no public transprtation, no good food , only left over in the staff canteen.....ai......I would say this year is  a sad , hot and lonely Christmas that I ever had.....hahahaha....Merry Christmas....

 

Cheers~

I just found myself havn't come here for ages?!!maybe even decades!!haha~^^">

although I have been graduated for like 2months??3months? but i still unemployed........how miserable I am,haha~

When I was thinking about my life in a cafe today....I realized that when you grow older and older you will just have more and more things that you afriad of....make it an example, when you were a child, you may simply afriad of insects or worry about having no ice-cream for dessert.....etc..at least that's the case for me when I was a little girl...but now, you know wt....I am afriad of:

1.) ghost

2. Death

 

    

 

羅志祥 - 為你寫首歌 ( amy 改編版)	羅志祥 - 為你寫首歌 ( 原版)
天色快亮了 抱著你的手還停留著 好不捨 分手那一刻 回憶在腦海裡拉扯著 我哭了

    ohh, yeah , it's boxing day again, I would like to say a Big thank you to my parents!! They gave me a great great christmass present this year...haha, a trip to Germany and..........Swarovski necklace!!!( Although I bought it before I let them know about it...but i use my pocket money to buy it la, i didn't spend extra or use credit card oh...hahahah!)

ok, as I promise my mum, I have to show her the necklace, I took a pic.....let's check this out!

  

Amy's Present "Etera Pendant"

 

but not the one who seems to be never exists in this planet......

 

Ok, as I have promise my mum that I have to post some snowing photos and video here, here they come~!

 I would say nowadays the weather is really wired, I remember last year , there is no snow at all, only like 1-2 times within the whole winter term( wt i mean is the winter term that i stay in swiss) but this year, it start snowing in Nov~! the "climate" is really changing, haha!! anyhow, enjoy the vidoe and photos, I just took those in my room since it's really damn cold that I really don't wanna get out of my room....maybe I would take some more during my german trip!! oh yeah, I will be going to Germany on 20/12 , anyone need help to buy anything there? please leave a message, but don't forget, service charge is needed for sure, haha!

Ciao~

   As the first semester is over, I am quite free these days..( actually is not, but I jsut let myself stay free all the time..haha). When I got nothing to do , I found something great in youtube and I hope to share that with all of you who love music as same as I do. Actually i don't know their name , but they have a really gd voice and they are doing soemthing that I really want to do but have no "brave" to do so....performing  at the entrance of the MTR station in Tokyo!! They are not asking ppl money for that , wt they wanna so is to let ppl listen to their performance, i would say they really got the telant and they really sing very well!! hope that one day , I could watch their performance in person when one day......who want to go with me?

HOME (清水　翔太)

      

Miss you (清水　翔太)

 

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

today , I got mood swing again...I keep thinging in negative side..i don't know why...it just make me think my life is miserable.....yeah maybe thats tru anyway..who knows?

I think i really change a lot after i been here for my stupid certificate which cost my parents at least 600000...and give me a free gift of keep reminding me I cost them a lot of money from my mum...yeah yeah, I know all about it. and I know i must try all my best to pay them back after i got that stupid certificate. I don't know why, I keep  blaming others for making my life misarable..like no one want to care about me, no one would come to say hello to me only because they really want to see how I am doing...no one will knock my door and see if everything is ok with me..no one will care wether i am sleeping or having serious stomache but just keep arguing with with a damn annoying volume outside my room....no one...it seems that I mean nothing in everybody's life, even in my life....I feel like i keep alive in this world with no meaning...no body really needs me at all...wihtout me, they can keep on with thir colourful and happy life..yeah that's true actually....i no one want to care about me? y i have to care about them anyway...I already feel tired of keep helping ppl without getting any thankful back...

after i came here, I start thinking it's useless for me to be friend with others..since liek 2-3 years later, they just become a stranger then you even don't want to say hellp to them even you see each other on the street...yeah that's life anyway, they have no right to do that and they need not to do so, as they won't affect my results if I don't becoem friend with them so we can join together and do project together.........

now I don't even want to social with other hk ppl, since i don't know wt I should talk to them and no one knwo wt I really want as well.....I am nolonger the oen that I know 3 years ago.....and I do'nt' know who I am actually. all i know now is to finish those report and disertation which keep heating the deadline..and tryt o find a place to work which far from my home town and get rid of everybody and continue my miserable life...

I have lost my happiness, who can find it back for me?

 

 

Who can find out the different betwenn these 2 photo???? give you a hints...I took both photet outside my window!

haha...i think everyone can figure it out ba, rainbow ne!!a huge one but only appears for like 1 min>< sure I have to reord it down lo~!haha

ok, actually I am busy like hell these days!!!!not because I am busy to play around but....busy in doing dissertation proposal!i really wan tot kill myself for that...everyday keep reading journals..and I think after this semester i will at least gain 200C of short sight.....ai...still a long way to go ne....when will it come to an end? ok i know the answers....when the day i die!!haha~ C'est la vie......ok if you guys don't believe how damn busy i am , I can show you evidence....see the photo below....

really haven't been here for long long time...i think no more ppl will come here to read my blog la ba, haha~!sorry to those who came before...as I really silly to update the blog, actually, I got many thing that I want to share here, but I just too lazy to do the typing..haha


but this time, i really want to keep some of my feeling and thought here so that I need not to think about them all the time..it makes me feel tired...really..
i think everyone who knows me should know about gary,this guy, I would say he gave me a lot ,but also cost me a lot, he gave me friends from all arounf the world and power from his music so that I can keep on going to face the problems when I was in Swiss...those I really appriciate...however, he also cost me a lot, I lost a lot of time and $ and I even change my personaility(too serious? but that's true)...I don't know how to say, i think start from last year...whenever finish joining his funciton ...the only feeling i got from him is sadness......the more popular he is, the more sadness i got, since it just like I become useless....now he already got more and more fans supporting him, I even don't know wether he still rememebr who amy is...whenever I saw him, there's always a bunch of ppl around him, no more talking between us, less and less solo photo I got.......I keep asking myself y I still continue to support him throught these years? Y I don't give up after I go to swiss? Y I still hope that I can meet him again even though I feel sad after every function?  Y I still love to buy his cd and support his music although I already know those songs are no longer the one I listened in 2006 which can make me feel touching from teh bottom of my heart? Y I still joining his funcitons after I know that's onyl because I am responsible for that?

HAvn't been here for a long time arleady, cos i have start my internship already, everyday from 10-1030.....that's really not funny i would say, because of that , I los t a lot of things, friends, time, freedom, i can't do wtever i want, i just forcing myself to smile, to work..etc etc....

It seems like I am always alone, even during my break tie from 3-630 everyday, the only thing that I can do is buying a cup of coffee and do some reading ro 3 hours, everyday!wt the........ I am wondering if I make a reight choice......i am really regret for making this deision actually.....because the hotel brand name, i choose to leave my dear friend and work alone, i give up  a chance to work in Japan .......ai......

it seems that the distance between me and my friend  become really fare away, i lost my ability to find topic to talk , I become a person who aliways doing stupid thing and asking stupid question, I become the one who hope to be involved but not the one who always get involved by others............who can tell me wt i do wrong?I just want to be happy and that's it............i want my friend and my hppy memories back.......no more sadness ........................................

Today I was soo happy, haha~!

Because today I had a free drive by " Ferrari"~!That's the first time in my life, I Would say the feeling of sitting in the Ferrari and driving along the road with a speed of 150km/h is ...................Horrible ......but.....Amazing!!!!! I Just feel like everything is gone soo fast! This second I was 10M in front of the traffic light, and then the next second , I was already 100M away from that~!haha~

it's the first time for me to update my blog after i got move to pixnet.net...um..actually, i am really down today...um...not only today , but the past few days....although all my problem have been fixed. Ii need not to care about my internship, visa stuff anymore,however, Ii can't feel any happiness come out of my heart.I ijust feel like something is missing in my life...in the past few days, i have nothing to do , nothing that I want to work for....the feeling wasn't that gd..

I did think a lot in the past few days...i thought that y my life isialways full of "challanges"??how come everythime i put a lot of effort in doing one thing but at last , it just fail to achieve the goal?yyy?it is i really that bad so no ppl or country that want to get me involved?although i did ask meself to carry on , and yeah I did , i did carryonn in finding other offer sin hk....but I can't stop myself to feel sad about losing the offer in singapore.....i start deal with the hotel at the beginninig of sep......after i sacrify such a lot of time and effort, they give me a fail in getting the visa is because i am studying in a coutnry that they are not regonise???is it my fault???!!Ii don't know...

actually, after i back to hk , i never feel happy even during my taiwan trip, tha'ts the first time I feel sad when I was watching gary's performance( sure i didn't express my sadness) or eating those tasty food...not because it's always raining, but because I just lost my offer right before i go to taiwan...I lost everything at that time.I really hope that someone could notice my sadness and just came to ask me  wt happen....but no one did it.....and during the trip ....something happen that make me feel like.........um....無奈吧...i didn't mean anything, i know ppl did that to me is for my own gd, but when that's happened during my" down period" , it will make me even hurt.

Finally come to the end of this semester, actually, I would say this semester really gone soo fast, it just like i was back to IHTTI yesterday~!
This semester is really a diseaster for me...non stop working , planning, writting, exams..........never end....frustrated is the only feeling that i had now....sometime i even asked myself y I need to pay such a lot to put myself into hell, sometimes just want to cry hard, but even though i cried like lossing my mind, things and exams still comming , whenever i woke up iwt i need to do is to finish plenty of reports and group before the due date...I really want to get used to it, but it's hard, really hard......

alhtough it's hard, but finally it's over, i don't know how i stay alive, is it a miracle?who knows? after this semes, next task will be internship, i don't know if i make  a right choices, but it's no doubt that singapore is my favourite place which i would like to carry on my live there in the future, but I have no confidence to say that I must learn something from the internship right now as I don't know if I can satnd with those responsibility of providing high standard of performance, I go a little bit scare, cos ogf my terrible experience in singapore before.......i don't know...It seems that there are full of question mark in my life right now, i don't know wt is really the correct way for me to carry on my life, i don't know wt goanna be happened next year (or in BA) i don't know i don't know , i am totally lost actually...but I realized that no matter how hard life is, you still haev to over come that, "time" is really fair, it will never wait for you , but it must keep going, so hard time must  gone someday, this already become a motivation which supporting me ......i really hope that someday , i can find a motivation which can really " motivate " me but not telling me how the realistic is and forcing me to motivate myself...pls no more.....

Hey guys.....havn't been here for a long long time, as you know , i got plenty of works this year, i would say , that's totally a diseaster for me, no matter n=mentally or physically......i almost exhausted..........but i still got one month to go...ai.....but anyway, finally come to the christmas break, i got a little bit free time to go to Zurich>

But the weather is damn cold there,-6 C, it's freezing>< but i still eating japanese ice-cream at that time, how crazy I am.....cos i always think that it's a gd time to eat ice ream in winter, cos your ice cream will never melt!haha, that's true, but my hand goanna freeze instead, hahaha!

you know how cold there is? see this!!haha

finally~~~

HEHE~before i think some of you already seen qqmy schedule through those week , right? now I have just pass my diseaster week,week 46....I really exhuasted in that week....2 reports, supervisory week, theme lunch preparation , brownie baking.............i just feel like my life is "burning" ..haha, no time to sleep, even when i was sleeping, i still thinking of how can I write for my report....omg....but anyway, those already passed but ne challanges are waiting for me.....cos i still have week 47,48,49.......every got a report to hand in m exma as well.....I really can't imagine how I can be when i back to hk, beocme a panada?haha, who knows?

But there was a gd news I have received last week la, now i have already processing my japan visa lor, hope everything will goes fine and I can make my dream come true la^^westin awaji island, i am coming!

hey , to anyone who will come to my blog.actualyl some ppl always tell me y my blog soo sad......um...I don't know maybe that who I am ba...cos i think here already the only place that I can share my real feeling ...to say wt i want to say , wt I am busy with....I already not sure which amy is the real amy lu.....

first of all, let's talk about my school life.....i would say ....it's suck........plenty of report , supervisory work, non stop planning ...group wor...event planning....evening duty....intership stuff....I really frustrated...I already forgot when I was really happy and always in good mood throughout the day...I already forgot when I will think tomorrow is a happy day...maybe there are no more happy day in my life la ba.....I don't know.

actually, sometimes , I start to hate myself....cos after i back to HM, I easily get angry with someone, I always blaming others and said they don't do their work and blah blah blah.....

i don't kow how to express my feeling now....i just feel hopeless ......it seems that no one can help me, no one understand me, and no one can stnd with me???
i just freel so stressful.......i ven don't wan tot to do anything, don't wan tto read anything related to those assignment , report, internship stuff....it's always hurting me....no reply for internship, no highly motivated groupmates....nonono, nothing...i got nothing.................i can't do wt i want to, i can't go whever i like, i don't know if i can pass through this few weeks.....anyone can push me a bit? i have no more power to move on.......

i just feel sad at this moment.......

我捱得過嗎?
or  this already the last few weeks in my life????? I don''t know....

Y human beings always face this kind of problems? If you want to protect yourself, then you can to give up something....friendship?ai........

Now , my everyday life seems only got" internships" this word...it 's the only thing in my brain.......no internships, mean nothign i can do...no motivation, no target..nothing...

I hate this kinnd of waiting.......it make me sooo nervous....i don't wan tot use all of my time to dealing with this problem.....i hate that......

I still remember last year , today was the happiest time that I ever had here, Wine festival, the biggest event in neuchatel.....playing hard , drank hard, although i hurt my knee, but I still very happy ...like no stress, no sadness...only friends and happy memories.......but those will no longer exists.......

ai......when i can get the reply from any hotel in japan ne?????
it seems that I got a difficult task again.....how come i always choose the way that not easy to go through????I always ask myself  this questitons but i never get an answer........actually i can get an internship easily by choosing my home country or just simply stay in swiss or somecountry like dubai? actually i know it, but I just want to choose the destination that i really wan tot go to and really want to live there ,like last time, i choosed taiwan....although many thing happened and it totally a hard time for me, but I will never regret about having this decision , cos i really got a lot of happiness from that hard time...and those memories will never be forgotten......
However , this time , i have choosed japan......it seems that it will more harder than going to taiwan ........it that a wrong decision?i don't know, cos japan is one of my favourite place, i really wan tot stay their and experience their lifestyle.....i wan tto use all the chance provided by this course to go whereever i want, those place that I may not be there forever if i didn't pick this course, i really don't wan tto waste any chance...but can I make it htis time? i don't know....I got less and less confident about that......who can help me? hope i will get some reply tomorrow ....positive reply...pls......

almost didn't update for a month again...I am soo lazy ne^^">
and , finally i have back to swiss to continue my study...a feel like back to prison again, haha~
as wt i have exoected, everything and everyone changed after the intership , even myself, i won't say that's gd or not, but i just can't get used to that yet.The distance between each other become much more far than before, everyone just become a little group and enjoying their own world within their group, although everyone may behave nothing was happened, but I believe everyone are know about it, time is really a horrible thing, never wait for anyone , never care about anything, just move forward and try it's best to make ppl being far from each others.............

I think after the internship , or i would said after living in taiwan for half year, or even after i study in Swiss for half year, all of my faith and convidence had gone. it just like I got a deep hole inside my heart, nothing is important to me, friendship become a thing that's always hurting me, no matter wherever i go , I just keep myself away from other, i dont' want to talk with anyone or even having any eye conact whenever i talk to them. You know y? because I don't want to be hurt agian.......I don't wan tot show any care to anyone anymore, cos I afraid , I afriad i will have nothign return even I pay a lot of effort to build friendship with others, it's really tired, when you show your repects to them and try to care about them, but when you are sad, when you are sick, and when you really want someone to talk to, or even when you want someone to give you a hug in orer to show that you are not alone......Who care? when you really put a lot of effort to keep the friendship but your friend just think those are bull shit and try different way to scold you and blaming you didn't care about them...wt will you think?I think you will just give up in trying anything like me, cos the only one who will never giveup you is yourself, the one who really love you is yourself only, no others......I really tired...I don't want to try...

到不了...


你眼睛会笑　弯成一条桥　

i remember last weeks, i was looking forward to come back....but now , at this moment, i already have no feeling about my holiday in hk anymore....i don't know, i really looking forward meet my friends, everytime before i go out and meet them , i just get well prepared and " think" that it must be a great memory for me to bring back to swiss...however, all are out of my expectation, whenver I meet with them, we no longer have topic even we had more than 1000 topics before...I was rally outdated...i sees that wherever i go , i just got no friend ...跟每個人的關係都變得生疏．．．就好似以前辛苦所建立的友誼都唔見哂ｇｕｍ．．有時會諗究竟當初要去唔同的國家見多ｄｉ學多ｄｉ　ｇｅｉ決定係ａｒｍ定錯呢？如果ａｒｍ　ｇｅｉ，自己而家就唔會ｇｕｍ唔開心，如果錯ｇｅｉ，而家亦無回頭的餘地了．．．而家我知道當一個人係每個地方都停留唔超過半年ｇｅｉ時候，佢ｇｅｉ所見所學無疑係多左，但所失去的永遠比得到ｇｅｉ多，ｏｎｌｙ令人變得孤獨就已經夠了．．．．．


ｙａｕ諗太多了．．．．

okok, everybody, here coem to part 12^^

as I remember last time, i was talking about how frustrated in teaching new intern, isn't it? but after the last week, i can say i got a different point of view about teaching or wroking with them.

in the past week, as our outlet got 3 new interns who called Egger, Summer and Sheila, all of us including me, intern as well ,have to teach them how to be a successful waiter or waitress is bel air. For me, I am the one who teach them the operational work in the back office.I just teach them what they have to prepare for the underlinder of the dishes, how to polish cultery, how to read the order, how to "fire" food, etc, etc. i just keep repeat, repeat and repeat everyday , you know why?cos they report on different day?!haha

ok, here come to part 11~!

as I  have mentioned in the pervious blog, many of my good collaeges' internship are come to an end, now  more and more new interns is coming to our restaurant. As everyone have the responsibility to teach the new interns,for me, I am responsible to teach them how to be a food controller, to be the king/queen of the back office, haha!

Actually when i head my team leader , Hsin , told me in brifing time" Amy, today you just take care the new intern and teach her how to be the food controller.", the first thing come to my mind was" oh ! what? I teach a new intern? I just work for 3 months, how can I teach them? I even can't do the job well yet......" I just feel really stressful at that time, I afraid  that I will make mistakes when teaching them, as I still not really familiar with the restaurant operation. And now i just realized how difficult when you have to teach someone, you cannot only tell them how to do that job , but have to show them as well, besides you also need to teach them and work at the same time! since they are new in the restaurant , they may know nothing about how to present the food, where is the position that they have to bring the food to, how to read the order, how to prepare the underlinder, which dishes use which kind of underlinder, how to do the side table service, how to do the polishing and be the food controller a the same time....................etcetc, you have to teach them all the thing that you have learned from past 3 months within ine day time........it really a hard task for me, cos i am also a " new" intern in Bel Air, sometimes when there were more than 50 guests come to our restaurant, everyone will be very busy and everything just become messy, especially the back office, i just run here and there to ge the order and polish all the thing like a crazy woman!now i have one more task is to teach them at the same time! now i finally realized that how tired and hard of being a teacher or leader, and I really feel both of my team leader and manager are superwomen, they just do everything well, no matter teach and work ,or even dealing with guest's complain. Now they already becoem my targetm i hope that one day,I can be a successful hotel operator like them.

Cry during my workinig time...........

today'sreport is so simple, just like my topic, " cry during my working time~" let me explain y it happen to you guys.

till now, i have already work in bel air for more than 3 months, I would say, i really learn a lot in the past 3 month, especially when i was working in the back office to be the food controller, i really love this job actually, since you can lean a lot of skills that you can't learn from your school or from the books, you have to learn from your experience, eg.) time management. And chief are really funny there , i always haev a happy time there. Howeve sometimes, it really stressful, especially when the reservation is more than 50 ...cos at that time, the manager outside will always come to the back office and ask for the food and the chief inside will always push you to bring the food outside...I would say that's  a nightmare for me...it is because when everything  gonna be hurry, everyone will in a bad mood,as they can't show that to the guest, wt they can do is show their bad mood in the back office, eg.)giving pressure to the chief so as to bring out the food as soon as they can., so when the chief is not happy, who they can shouted at in order to release their stress?????? the answer is.............................the food controller in the back office! that's me in the past one month, haha~i understand everyone should find a way to release their stress, so i won't mind about that, but sometimes a questions will come up to my mind, who I can release my stress to?????the answer si no one, haha!

       


when i saw this two photos, i just feels like i step out from the prison, and that's the first sunshine i saw(although that's a sunset.......haha), it just make me feel peaceful and comfortable , its difficult to find such slience moment in taipei ohh...........ok so where is my prison??

haha, my family always ask me to post some new photo here, okok ,i finally got time to upload photo here, so hey guys, any different about me?????

4 months before

till inow i almost work in my hotel for more than 2 months ,as tieme goes be, I gain more and more experience and knowledge, but sure friendship as well! now we already become a gd partner with each other, when anyone one of us got problem, we just help each other, now i realised an belair team is already formed! I realised that team work is really important in hotel operation! thank you claire, amilly,joy,neo,tiff............many many many!!!

ohhh yes,I really feel thankful to all "boss" who give me help when i was being the food controller , just like last night, when i had to due with m ore than 40 guest's food , i am goonna be crazy, and everything just hurry hurry and hurry, cheifs pushing me to take out the food in the kitchen, then my boss (manager) jsut keep asking me when will the food come out...ohh, when i so nervous and on't know what to do, my superman appear!!he is call mario , assistant director of F&B department!he is really nice, he teach me how to be a gd food controller, like arrange all the order in a proper way, don't put all the order together, like seperate  main course order and soup order, so when colleague "fire" the food, then it will recognise the order more easily.Mr. Mario treat us like his partner but now a worker, he alway repsect us and he can teach me french as well , since he is from Swizterland!haha~  

besides, now already the end of june, as I start my internship late, most of my colleagues already finish their half year internship training, all oif them will leave before the middle of july...

I would say, i longer try anymore lu~sicne that's a task that i can never be success..haha, now i just wan tto laugh, since i really feel soo " surprise" how the friendship between two people can break soo easily..haha...i don't know how to say, sometime, you best friend can talk to you and care abotu tyou all the time...but the other day, they can treat you like a person that they never met before....i just feel sooo disaapointed and give up to try, if they want to treat me like that, then i have no reason to treat them like my best friend anymore...haha, i just think i am soo stupid to do so many thing before...hahhaha....i don't know how to say.....i already won't pray that  our relationship will back to a month before, sicne that's impossible, hahah and the main point is , i even don't know wt happen between us, can anyone tell me?? haha

now i need to get used to be alone lu^^

maybe that's a little bit late in writing this report, i am so sorry about the because i was extremly busy and tired.....since there is an exhibition called " computex" being held next to our hotel from 5/6-9/6.......that's a really big exhibition which attract many factory owners from different countries to come and join the exhibition.As there are many foreginers...they always having meeting ,lunch , and dinner in our restaurant...our restaurants was continue to be full for more than five days , not only lunch time, but whole day ,including the time then we supposed to be closed for preparing our dinner setting, since many ppl just rush to our outlet to have meeting here..........

for me , i am the food controller for the whole weeks..so as I remember, i just run and Run and Run for the whole week...since i have to place the food for more than 70 customers for each meal time..sometime, i even have to place the foodo for 2 to 3 table at that same time!how can I do that, i only got 2 hands.........so now i realised i have to learn how to carry 4 to 5 plates in each time when i abck to ihtti!!haha! my nightnare didn''t finish after i finish relaease all the food from the kitchen ohh..........I still have to polish hundards of cuterly, glasses, show plates immediately in order to prepare for the next meal time...........although i quite enjoy polishing, since i can talk to cheif and my collegues when they pass by...but it hurts my hand >< i htink if i continue polishing for 2 more months, my hand will just liek my grandma;s hand , haha!but i relaly like to work in the back office, since it help  me to know more about back office's work and build friendship with cheif,now i seems got more friends in my outlets ne, at least i won't feel alone anymore  during my working time^^

By the way,fortunately, i got many ppl to help me, my collegues and manager always help me when i have not enough" hand" to place the food to customers.....and when i was sooo nervous in during sooo many orders...one of the manager call Freeman just stand next to me and help me to due with them...i really feel thankful to him, and to all my buddies collegues, without their help, i can never finish my job .Thnak you guys!

ok, here is my internship report part 6!

actually , nothing really special in the past week , expect I have to work soooo hard and got exhausted everyday^^">

but few days before, i have learnt some important thing.....which i learned from a customers who always some to our restaurant, his name is called Micheal Allen, who always be the guest in different hotel's restaurant.

In that past week, i have to go to banquet to support for one day, that a great experience for me, since that make me know that I have to cherish what I got now, or the job that I am working in , I have to learn of being satisfied. Why i said so, since before i always think that , it was soo stressful for me to work in bel air, but actually, after I being a supporter in banquet, I just think that working in bel air is just like work in a paradise.Since working in banquet is 10 times stressful and harder than working in a small outlet like my restaurant.....Bel Air.

As I didn't have a lot of experience and I didn't learn chinese cusine service sequence, I was being a drink filler on that day. Actually that day was a big event in our hotel which is one of the rich and power person in taiwan held a wedding party for his daughter, there are many reporters and photograhers waiting outside the hotel ...the whole atmosphere was formal and ceremonious, a lot of politician and famous people joining this wedding party.although I am only the drink filler on that day, but i still feel really nervous  , since if I make any little mistake when service all the guest , it may cost a great problem to my hotel afterward.

I have filled beverage for more than 5 hours on that day, although i was exhausted after finish my job, It make me learn a lot and it also widern my horizon.I learn that " team work " is the most important part in banqet ..nono,btu al the outlet. Since work as a team can help you to work smoothly, and the trust between each other is also important, sometimes people can't finish a task a lone, just like if you want to provide the best service to all the customers in this wedding party, you have to trust your collegues and work with each other as a team...if not job can't be done smoothly and for sure, best service can't be provided..that wt I have learn in this wedding party.

ok, here come to my internship report again. 
In the past week, my restaurants was very busy , since there was an exhibition held next to my hotel, thus many businesee men came to the restaurant. 
in the past week, i did try many new things, such as take care of a ball room and vip room, which mean i have to serve the guest who book the vip room, sometimes i have to serve 3 ppl but sometimes , i have to serve 12 ppl by myself, it really stressful. As they are all vip guest to our restaurant , i can't make any mistake. But for me, i think the most difficult part to the time control, since you are the only waitress for that room, you have to places dishes on the table and remove all the dishes at the same time, you can't let the guest wait fro soo lone, so you have to "fire" the food at the right time and also need to open wine for them sometimes, that's really not an easy task, whenever i finish serving them, i just feel like all my energy for that day has been gone^^">But i did learn a lot from that, i learn how to take the order, how to communicatre with the guest and how to seel our food to the guest, that is a great experience for me^^

Besides that, i also being the food controllar in last week, i have to replace the dishes to all the guest in our restaurant, now i realised that this is th ehardest job in our restaurant>< you have to remember the table no, the seat no. , wt preparation work you have to do in order to placing the food(eg, get the underlinder and coaster,get the tea spoon for sauces........etc)

today is 11/5, I am having my day off, but i can't feel any happiness for that...wt i think now is only " tomorrow is time to work again.." 
many peoplw said , you can't blame anyone because that's what you choose ...I know about that...but i really not happy right now. Till now...2 months have already past....the happy moment that i had, i would say , not more than 10 ...I won't say i regret in making this decision, but it's totally out of my prediction ....now everyday, i just work and sleep, i really hate this kind of life, but even though  I got off, i still   alone and do nothing.I can't find anyone to go out with me, whereever i go , i just go alone, is that whatt I really want, is that whatt i should got after I pay such a lot of effort to come here to have my internship, Idon't know, who can tell?but i really feel frustrated for that, friends, i got here, but i can find no one whenever i was sad.sometimes i just want to  talk to someone or do some shopping with someone,all of them are busy.
I know that's not other's fault ,but that's totally not a  good feeling.........and "it" come tooo often....when i can get rid of that? i really miss my life in Hong Kong,  whenever I feel bored , i can find my friend to go KTV with me, hang out with me or do shopping with me...

here come to the 3rd week of my internship.....


as I need to travel MTR back home, I have changed to morning shift instead of afternoon shift .actualyl after change to this shift , i learned a lot!now i realised, the importance of doing preparational work! and leared how important of time management^^ cos "time is the only thing that will never wait for you , when you diong the perparation work in morning shift, if you can't finish your work before the opening time of the restaurant....i will cause a big problem, and no one will care about y ou can't finish in time....people in the real world will only care about the results, so now I have learned that if I know it's impossible to finish in such a short period of time, then wt I can do is use my own time to finish that, try to come to the restaurant 30 mins before my working time...or do FASTER! but I can say when people work under stress...they will learn how to work faster..haha! that's wt i am doing now, now i just in a "hurry " mode wtever i do, even walk! I think that's also a benefit that i gain from th is job ne^^

hey..here is my 2nd week report..actually , i can use two words to express my feeling in this past week....TIRED & EXHAUSTED...
this week, i have change to morning shift instead of O shift(overtime shift..) i am gald that I need not to take taxi everynight i finished my work...i would say, it help me to save a lot...but on the other hand , i need to weak up 2 hours ealier and after my work, i have to rush back home and go to bad as soon as I can...everyday is the same, work and sleep, no more free time and no more rest time><<br />
but i really learn a lot is past 2 weeks, first of all, i have learn the importance of TIME mangement! cos now I am no longer stay in IHTTI and being a student, no one with care about you, in this REAl world, time TIME is the ost important thing, if you can't  finish a task within the time your boss has given, you can only giveup your rest time or lunch time to finish that, there is no more "grey area" that you can think of in order to gain more time in finishing that task. so for me, now i try to back to the restaurants earlier , thus i can have more time to finish the preperation work, although, that's not the best way, but i hope that by reducing my rest time, i can erge myself to ijmprove my effectiveness!haha~

anyway, I would say, now here is already become my work station in preparing for my internship report.As i need to write a blog here evey week to record what was happened during my internhip..so you guys cann see me here everyweek..hahah!

ok, let's start.

maybe some ppl will know that i had put a lot of effort in order to get this job, i really cherish this chance, so sure i did work hard lor.But last week was really my hard time......since i haven't work in F&B or doing anything related to service for more than 2 months....when i start to work, i suddenly being ask to do this and do that and serve the guest...and work from 12:00-12:00a.m.!!omg.....i was extrememly tired...when i polishing a thousand of cuterlies...i have a thought that later whenever i saw anyone having western cuisine...i will kill them...!

but on the order hand, i realised that , before when i was having dinner and talked happily with my friends or family...actually that is the result of many people behind and paying a lot of effort in order to make the whole dinning goes smoothly...some may working in the kitchen and see when should they get the food out...ssome may polishing a thousand of galsses and cuterlies...some may thing how to settle the complaint from the guests....etc,etc...So I think being a waiter is really a hard job but it's worth learning! I really learn a lot this week!

so , finally ,i would say we should respect all the people who serves us in the world, waiter is totally not a " low level job, don't even think that you pay money to have a meal in a restaurant so you have right to blam the waiters with no reasons and look down on them...since without their service...no one can have a happy meal time~

hey guys, come her and write something again!

first of all , i need ot say thank you to god, since now everything is settle....finally need not to back to hk^^">

however, i still have to wait fro one more week in order to start me work ohh....actually,it can say that's my last holiday before I back to swiss....but I don't know why, sometimes, I just in bad mood and don't know where i can go and wt i can do....the felling really terrible when you wake up every morning without an "aim"...that's Y i just sleep till 12:00p.m. everyday^^" actualy that's gd la, at least i can keep fit, as I always ahve my first meal at around 3-4....it can help me to save money, haha!

in pass  few days , when I watched a tv adv. the nike one, all the ppl in that adv said" impossible is nothing" , for me, the first thing that come to my head is " is that true??so is it mean that now the thing i am doing will not be impossible?since impossible is notinng......

before I also support this thought, but it make me feel doubt in pass few weeks.......but I think I will try my best to believe that, since the one who are doing the "impossible " thing don't believe that, how can it be done???

and few hours before i just prove the thought my other blog......garyhkkfc.....that message give me a great support on showing that" impossible is noting"!

Even though I try , even though I cry.....the world still left me behind.....
who I can pray for? who i can talk to? I don't know.....

what i hope know is ......god will bless me tomorrow , and i can get wt i want........
cos i didn't do anything wrong.......I don't know y the world need to treat me like this.............

難道不想向現實低頭的人就要受到ｐｕｌｉｓｈｍｅｎｔ　？？
難道這個就是我在過去幾個月不停努力，　不肯放棄的結果ｍａ？？
難道這就是上天ｐｕｌｉｓｈ　我做太多了嗎?
我有做錯嗎？如果有，我到底做錯甚麼？
ｗｈｙ　ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｔｈｅ　受害者？？？

hey guys..come here to write something again...
now is 2:45a.m. ne..nearly come to an end of gary's hk promoto tour.......in the pass 4 days....I can tell you i was extremely tired...although i am quite happy on monday..but now whenever I was alone ...i will then think actually y i need to do all like that???for wt??gary??but i think he even can't think of my name if i didn't give him some tips?!actually, i keep on doing this "job" already for more than one year..but wt i can get actually? few autographed photo??cd??

actually, those i mentioned are not the thing that I really wanted...i just want to be friend with gary andn enjoy his music only.....It 's really difficult for me to find the happy feeling that i can get for his musix at the biggning....since now whenever i htink of him, i will then think ...oh , how can we organise all the ppl in the airport?how many JSG ticket we can get?how many ppl will join the recording................although me and crystal everyday just work till 3:00 at keast...but will he know that actually?? NEVER ba......I didn't blame anyone i just think Y our club can't be successful sometimes......when i went to singapore last week, when i joined their funciton, i really think that's a Official club,but how about us? I don't think we are not workhard enough...but y we jsut can't getting interested from others???y many ppl still think that we hide something and didn't tell them??we already try our best....we let you guys tkae photo first and now we even don't have more than 5 photos in our camera...we let you guys talk to him first...evern hough we already wait for him outside the station for more than 30 mins....wt you want  us to do???? I just want ot gather allt he ppl an dsupport gary happily...

Here is the lyric that I rewrited from gary's song " 你是我的寶貝”, haha!welcome for your comment..haha, I think everyone just hope that's wt gary want to tell us ba, haha!

你是我的寶貝
曲：ｇａｒｙ　詞：ａｍｙ(rewrite version)